Confession

bas itni rudad hai meri

ishq mein KHana-KHarab hua main

un ki aankhon ka tha ishaara

waqf-e-jam-o-sharab hua main

zulmat-e-sham-e-alam kam karne

apne hi ghar mein aag laga di

main ne kufr-e-junun ke hathon

mamlakt-e-kaunain ganwa di

dard-e-wafa ko shohrat de di

mahfil mahfil ghazal suna kar

zaKHmon ke gul-daste beche

gali gali aawaz laga kar

des des phailai kahani

apni wafa ki un ki jafa ki

dhajji dhajji ruswa kar di

apne gareban un ki qaba ki

dil ke lahu se kitne aansu

chamka chamka kar chhalkae

reza reza kanch ke sapne

liye phira palkon pe uThae

kabhi to KHud roya mahfil mein

kabhi unhen KHalwat mein rulaya

un ki ek ek yaad ko samjha

ruh o dil o jaan ka sarmaya

un se jo gham mila us gham ko

ek saughat-e-wafa Thahraya

duniya ki ek ek uljhan ko

un ki zulfon se uljhaya

un ki qamat ka afsana

dar talak main ne pahunchaya

un ke liye sau jaan se main ne

maut ko apne gale lagaya

har ek sar ko un ka sauda

har ek shauq ko wahshat de di

har ek dil ko un ki tamanna

har sine ko hasrat de di

bas itni rudad hai meri

ishq mein KHana-KHarab hua main

kisi shahr mein kisi hajar mein

farsh-e-zamin par arsh-e-barin par

kisi sitare kisi qamar mein

aalam-e-arz-o-sama mein kahin par

kash koi wo hasti hoti

jis ko ye rudad sunata

bojh gunahon ka hai dil par

aaj ki shab halka ho jata

us se kash ye kah sakta main

aalam-e-kul tujh se kya parda

kizb-e-mukammal hai ye kahani

ye sara afsana jhuTa

main ne KHud hi tarasha ye but

aur us but ko KHudai de di

mujh ko bhi is par sach ka guman hai

jhuT ko wo ranai de di

aaina-KHanon mein rangon ke

apni hi surat ko saraha

apni hi taKHliq ko puja

apni hi talbis ko chaha

dil ke mahram ruh ke shahid!

jhuT aur sach pahchanne wale

main ne unhen dekha bhi nahin hai

meri haqiqat jaanne wale!

mere KHair-o-shar ke muhasib

tujh par to sab kuchh raushan hai

meri saza jaza ke malik

mera jurm ye mera fan hai

apni tamanna ka mulzim hun!

main in KHwabon ka mujrim hun!